Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Dark clouds gathered, it rained today morning. I was late for school but nice facililator I had. Science was really hard to understand. Break as usual, with many strangers and familiar faces- stared hard. It is so crowded that it doesn't even make you feel like eating. I was in a different team today. This time sucked badly, all the weird people. One don't bother doing anything, but steals credit at the end of the day. Disgusting small cliques in class made things even worse. Someone that I thought was normal, is actually not normal at all. After school, I waited for Nicki. I ended class at 2 today! Haha, always the earliest class to leave but so ,waiting at Woodlands Interchange alone wasn't something I ever wanted. So many memories I had back there, especially the parapet wall. Plus, the whole time I keep praying I won't have to see her. I really don't understand myself, why the fuck I'm getting jealous and scared for? Honestly, I'm a weaker competitor if I wanted him back. I wish I could but I still can't give up. Sometimes, I regret changing for the better. Those Ah Lian days seemed much better now. The hack-care attitude, I remember getting over someone for the longest was 8 days. Now, months... Who am I now? I feel that I lost myself.
ACCEPTANCE 7:03 PM
